Alright, alright, alright... so its been a while...SORRY. I am not going to pretend that it won't happen again...coz lets me honest, it might!  :) I am however going to recap what has been going on since the last update.

This is going to take some time. Not just to type it up, but to remember everything!
Alright fist thing first.... I am now a Mommy!

Shortly after my last blog (about a month or less) we found out we were expecting our first child. My husband and I have always wanted children and knew at some point in our life it was going to happen one way or another and well, we were blessed !!!

Before I jump ahead too much, I am going to try and remember my pregnancy. Partly because it was an incredible time in my life and I am going to share as much as I can, so that I can look back on this one day, and who knows maybe someone will enjoy reading about it.

So many people have told me, when the time is right it will happen. YOU may not think it is the right time, but your body and the baby feel differently. That was exactly how it was for me. I had been teaching for a while at that point working really hard on my own practice as well. A known side effect from working so hard is getting to be in the best shape of my life! I felt incredible, I looked incredible and I was on a high from living the life I wanted! The perfect vessel for a little one to be created in.

As happy as I was, I was scared, and unsure. Something I have wanted for so long was now happening and I wanted to push pause! This is hard to write as many Moms don't seem to want to talk about it, but I was struggling with being excited. My husband was over the moon, but I was still mourning my body, fearful of how my job was going to work out, and scared of the incredible task that lay ahead.

To say the least, I was struggling. It wasn't until I was at the 'safe' term and I was telling co-workers, students and friends that I began to get excited. I was teaching about 14 classes a week at this point. Cut back from 17...I felt like I had taken a step in the right direction but I still wasn't one hundred percent committed. This little baby inside of me was much loved but I was still struggling with the exterior. Accepting how I was going to change my appearance forever was a challenge. I didn't realize how vain I was (and still am...but I am working on it)